An Etymology Of Maladies: A Collection

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Some words are as unexpected but incredibly familiar as old friends. They have been the timeless echoes of many languages to me, each phrase serving as a tiny key that opens a bigger picture of where I am right now. This book is proof of that unfolding—how the echoes of the past, passed down through the ages and nations, can find new meaning in the present; how age-old knowledge, no matter where it comes from, can gently illuminate the very human terrain of a life lived today. The realisation that some facts, like some words, just won't go away is expressed in these poems, which span time and cultural boundaries. 

1. Anemoia: A nostalgia for a time you have never known

   A nostalgia for time you have never known

   A longing for a place in which memories fade into a sorrowful sunset 

   Nostalgia for what we shape our past to be in the present 

   A tortured poet; A queer painter; A knowing of what once was and what you wanted 

   A blurred line if Nostalgia for childhood realities versus what we want them to be 

   Anemoia 

   A nostalgia for time you have never known

   
   

2. Reverie: Lost in a daydream

   In a river of daydreams 

   A wistful frolick in the woods of what once was 

   Daydreaming of futures unbeknownst to us all

   Recreating and reminiscing in our minds escaping the fascist societies

   Reversing curses or calling on ancestral stardust to be lost once more 

   
   

3. Fata Viam Invenient: The Fates Will Find A Way

   
   

   The fates will find a way 

   They will knot and snip and draw strings 

   From womb to tomb 

   They control it all

   Higher powers 

   Or divine intervention 

   Crystals, hearses, Oracle, divinity 

   Tarots to tigers eye 

   The fates will find away 

   If you try to close a door and lock yourself 

   You will be freed 

   Because everything is fated3

   fata viam invenient

   Life is inevitable 

   
   

4. Alexithymia: The Inability To Express Your Emotions

   A statue 

   or a gargoyle 

   Stuck in its stone ways 

   Expressionless, emotionless, hollow or full of stone 

   Marble escapades of chiseled and carved emotions 

   An inability to tell their stories 

   Alexithymia 

   The inability to express your emotions 

   A hauntingly familiar task 

   Stuck in your ways of stone ways 

   A plastered smiles 

   Or a crumbled statue 

   Righteous objectors of emotions 

   Stone is cold and so is my heart 

   When I am frozen in ways of disposition

   No where to go except where I am and where I have been

   I cant express this thoroughly 

   Not coherently

   I am stuck 

   I cannot express my true emotions 

   Alexithymia - the inability to express your emotions 

   
   

5. Toska: An Uncurable and Indescribable Angusih

   My spirit has gone 

   A bonfire reduced to flickers of candle

   No word can describe toska

   An anguish 

   An unbeknownst 

   Denial and unsure 

   A dark hole of emotion You can never find the origin of 

   An emptiness eating away at you 

   I accepted it the immense ache for nothing and everything all at once; an anguish from the bottom of the heart